So there she was the next table over…,
but before we get into that, let me tell you how the night went!
It was my birthday two days ago. :) So, my friend Daria took me out last night. Thank you Daria for letting God use you. I remember two days early lying in my bed saying, God, I wish I had more friends who had wealth so they can take me out the way I want to be taken out. Before you begin to judge read on…
I have been going through this reformation lately! It’s been a rude awakening, out of the grips of self-preservation in it’s lowest common denominator and into the abundant expectation of the necessary reality I’m in. You see, I’m from the ghetto, born and raised, and I love the streets. I love my people. I have sooo much compassion for everyone going through and really overcoming great obstacles and adversities. I am sooo proud of you my friends and my families, I know what it is to almost break and die, but never quit. There does come a point though, where all that has to change!
Simply overcoming and barely making it, is not a suitable lifestyle for me anymore. Gone are the days of marking my worth by the mere birth challenges that surrounded me. No! contrary to what I was told, I am worth so much more. I deserve all I want in life and I’ve worked so hard thus far. But without even working at it, it’s my God given right to acquire my righteous inheritance and the spoils of my calling. When it comes to overcoming and working for others, I don’t know too many other people that have done sooo much for others with so little. For this, I do believe that my mentality has to change.
Our mentality must change. You can’t have what you don’t believe in. Do you believe that your worth more. Do you love yourself? For you can’t give what you don’t already have within yourself.
So, back to the story. I told God I wanted to be taken out the way I desired. So, Daria as mentioned in the first paragraph took me out, dinner and the museum. We didn’t really plan it much, just took it as the night came. She paid for my gas. It was expensive. I asked myself “Am I worth it?” immediately after my mind tried to make me feel bad about it.
So, we went on to the museum, but we were hungry. We were supposed to go to a bbq spot. Instead, we ended up going across the walk way of the Hyart museum to a fine dine restaurant. In lamens terms, each plate of food was $20 and up. I got this special made pork chop dish with veggies and such, was AMAZING. I was eating like I wanted to, the quality I so desire for myself (we’re all different!) I mean I cook and I’m really good at it, so I didn’t want to go to a restaurant and eat something I can make, I wanted better! Here I go, eating with all these wealthy people, but I still kept my own style of course! :) I did not change me, but if that wasn’t enough then we saw Leonardo Divinci’s work at the museum, wow, what an amazing night!
Before that though, back at the restaurant, there was a woman at another table behind me. I could see her in my side view. Blue eyes, thick frame, nicely dressed, full lips. She sat, talked and postured like a woman, just like I like. Previously, I had begun to flirt with the waitress, but then I saw this woman. I was at a cross-road. I have to admit, she was sooo beautiful I felt intimidated, but we caught eyes twice.
She passed by the table, blue shirt moving slow. She wanted me to talk to her. She passed by and exiting the hallway she looked back to tend to her little brother, she wanted to be seen. I had a choice, take a chance and run out that door for this woman I hadn’t spoken to, or sit there and continue to build repoir with the waitress. I sat, thought. I knew if I’d get up, I’d be noticed by the waitress and that opportunity would be messed up, but I knew what I wanted! You see, for me, there will be no more settling. I know what I want and what I’m worth and I will now begin to match my ability to receive with my expectation of gain, and run after it with all my might!
Will you join me? Will you be honest with yourself long enough to recognize that all that you want has been staring you in the face? Sure, it might be difficult sometimes to obtain, but let me tell you, it is much more easier to see and achieve, when you remove all the distractions. Our problem isn’t deciding what we want. No my friend, our problem is excepting the fact that we’re worth it.
By Sergio Valentin Jr.
P.S. I was too late walking out the door and she was no where in sight. My delay in deciding if I was worth it and if I was willing to give something mediocre to get it, caused me to miss out! But next time, I’ll know what I want and I’ll be ready to drop all and get it! :)